Sometimes its ok

I was feeling stressed today at work, then tension in my body was bothersome. It may have been because I had a follow up with Dr Kamaran, who knows but it was not a "good" day. BUT, then I planned to have a great relaxing evening once I got home. Ken had class tonight, so I decided to come home hop in my pj's and watch my shows that I had recorded. I poured a glass of white, poured a bowl of M&M's and hopped in the bed for two hours. Got up from there and took a hot bath, talked to Brooke by candlelight, told her my feelings and told her goodbye and that it was time for our 3rd phase. First being her growing up at home, Second being a young adult on her own, and now 3rd, living with her as a part of me and with her energy.The fourth phase will be an eternity joined with her. I felt great sadness saying good bye and I'm not foolish to believe I'm done with it, accepting it, and will not try to grab her back and wish her with me. But, its a first step.
After the bath, I practiced Tai Chi. I want to study and practice it and apply it to my running. There is a style called Chi Running and I bet it will be perfect for me.
Last night at Alanon we talked about Hope and old habits/coping mechanism's. Also death and grief came up alot. It was a good meeting. Tomorrow is Kay. I don't know how much longer she will be there and when I'll find out about Mike and what is going on at that office.
I was weighed at the Dr office today, 132 with shoes and clothes and a light jacket on. I think I'm doing good with the mindful eating, thinking about my choices and not over doing it. I AM doing well, learning as I go, not listening to rules, stopping before I'm stuffed, not being afraid of food, its just lunch as Swigg says!