Gobbling up m&ms

Tense, a glass of wine, finish a bag of candy. Was it because of watching Dexter, or the wine, or the sadness. It has been a sad day, a day where I notice my heartache all day long. Also Ken is out of town, am I lonely? Dont feel lonely, just feel stressed and want that feeling to go away. I'm sure I"m trying to change the way I feel, I also know that I'm going to feel like shit from the sugar, but I don't care, just want to cram it in. Why do I buy these? I'm actually feeling better typing this out and slowly will finish the candy. Tense again, holding my breath and shoving the candy in. Went downstairs and shoved some popcorn in. Threw it all up. Drinking a protein shake to help with any sugar left in me so I can sleep. Not a very relaxing night, not what I wanted at all. Now learn from this and its ok.