Where is my focus?

Taking the focus off food, really doing it. What if I read no books, blogs, Internet on what was healthy, what would keep me from aging poorly, what foods to avoid, what to add etc and really really just trusted and listened to my body? What would happen, can I do it? Why do I read and study food so much? I have a very strong desire to look good, and I have a strong desire to be fit, and to feel good. I have never really been overweight, true, I may not always eat the "healthiest" at least when you are looking at my blood work and body fat%.

I would like to really give it a go. Stop and listen. Always before when I have thought about "intuitive" eating or mindful eating, whatever you want to call it, it seemed it gave me permission to eat junk, I would think that eventually I would not want the junk anymore and I would magically get to a wonderful (thin and fit) healthy place for my body. Well I don't think so. I have a brain so I should use it. It does not take a whole lot of reading or studying to know that too much sugar or starch is not good for me. So why binge on it when it just makes me want more and more and more?

Ok, I can see at least one problem I'll have when I take the focus on food. I need to place the focus somewhere else. I'm thinking that meditation, and gentle exercise could be a good substitute. To treat myself with special care, because I have had a terribly rough couple of years and I need to recover. I've been a little resentful of not having the kind of special care and time to get through this, and it has just dawned on me that I'm the only one that can give that to myself. So, I will do it. I also want to incorporate "living the life I wanted for Brooke" for myself. That gives me some comfort and also some gentle guidelines on how to take care of myself, would I want it for Brooke? Would I want other people to treat Brooke in anyway that is unacceptable or not desirable? I can expect to have the same conditions for the way people treat me.

Of these things I am certain. I want and desire a fit and thin, athletic body. I want good health. I want to look great, and I want to feel great. I want serenity and peace in my life. I want a warm safe comfortable home. I want pride in my home and yard. I want to be close to my family and friends.